I hate being a woman and other random thoughs.

Since this spring, I have been going through a whole range of emotions. It varies between anger, fear, rejection, bittersweet sadness, happiness, excitement, determination and simply confusion. Why do I feel this way? Lots of reasons. How do I handle these feelings? Usually just watch 30 Rock to console myself that there are successful women (Liz Lemon) out there who DON’T have it all together, and can’t make it all work.

In other news, someone gave me a great compliment today. He said my butt looks good and that he wish that he had spent more time with me before moving back home so that he could know what he was missing out on now. And sent me an electronic kiss. It kinda of reminded me of the episode of Will and Grace (7th Season; Episode: Will & Grace & Nadine & Vince) when Kristin Davis guest stars as Nadine, the best friend of Vince who is Will’s boyfriend (confused, yet?) She confesses to Grace that she not only platonically loves her best friend, Vince, but is IN love with her best friend and maybe if she gets Will out of the picture then Vince will realize that he is actually in love with her. To which Grace replies: “YOU WILL NEVER HAVE HIM” (which is hard to hear) BUT Grace (having many more years of experience over Nadine) advises her that what she really wants is someone who will grab her a** in the subway and it not be an accident. Or someone who likes what is underneath the Gucci shirt instead of the Gucci shirt itself. In the closing scene, Vince and Will and Grace are waiting for Nadine to show up with Vince gets a text (or phone call, I don’t remember) from Nadine that says that she was going home with a man who grabbed her a** on the subway. To which Grace replies: “She’s going to make it” I laugh everytime because even though I do not support random hook-ups or even sex before marriage, I do believe that women want to have a man physically desire them not only emotionally desire them (which a lot of gay men do…another complicated situation.) I’m not about to date the first guy that whistles at me on the street but it does feel good when they do whistle.

I love 30 Rock (but I think I’ll have to make another blog entry for that)