Best Friend

Over a month ago, I was not in a good place. I was angry with the world, I was angry with God, I was angry with my friends. And I was angry with myself. But you know what, God has given me a month of healing and restoration. In just the past few days, God has taught me that I have lived my life too much in the shadow of fear. Always fearing some major diaster or minor heartache. Or fearing that I will anger Him and feeling guilty about how I couldn’t possible live up to His demanded perfection. Instead of strengthing a relationship and focusing on Him as the Lover of my soul and my close and intimate Friend, I have viewed Him as an angry judge who was waiting for me to mess up.
So He has definitely become my best friend.

Wish things were different

I wish I lived in a parallel world in which things were completely different. That isn’t very profound but I really want certain things to be different. I’m whiny right now and my blood sugar is very low and I’m grouchy. I just wish that it was different.